I'm in a tiny lull between busy times in the various projects I'm working on.
I've found myself reflecting on the passion and energy we have when we are busy and how easy that is relative to the quiet times. It almost seems harder to maintain passion for Gods plans when we are not driving towards some aspect of our dreams.
What does passion look like when we not running around madly doing stuff? Is it reflected in the peace we display whilst we wait for the next forward moment? Is it simply that we CAN "rest" whilst we wait for God to open the next door and don't have to be doing something just to show "everyone" we still are passionate! Is passion found in our speech when we talk of the project and the dream with the same joy and enthusiasm even when we not working on it at the time?
Obviously I believe it's a little bit of each.
We often have the mindset that other people will think we have lost our passion for our dream if we are not busy. To be honest I am quite comfortable that God is okay with this "lull between works" but I'm not sure those around me are. Do you feel pressure from people to be driving your project or passion just to keep others happy? Do you think you will lose their support if you don't give them something to do?
I often wonder if it is really man that puts pressure on us to be active - our friends, our family, our financial backers.........would they still support us if we just "rested" and waited for God to plan and initiate the next step. Because God would not stop backing us if we took a break and rested in Him. He would not get impatient if we stopped driving things and started following Him. He would not move on to a new project if we were waiting for Him to provide the grace for the next step.
Now none of this is happening to me at the moment so I'm not writing from any motive. I was just sitting here thinking about all that could be done and followed up AND YET I feel okay just resting for a few days and trusting that when the time is right I will get up and into it again - but with the grace and newly refreshed perspective that comes from spending time with my Daddy in heaven.
I don't have many dreams whilst I sleep but God has been starting to catch my ear in between the zzzzzzzzzzzz of a deep sleep. Two days ago I clearly remember a dream where someone said to read Jer29:12. I awoke with the words resounding in my thoughts (not forgetting my dreams like I usually do). So I immediately read the scripture: Jer29:12 And ye shall call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.
God was calling me away to spend time with Him, to give Him my thoughts and concerns, my priorities and strategies AND simply lay them at His feet. I have had many prophetic words about "resting my head on the Fathers chest" and "lying down by a quiet river and hearing God" and I'm only just starting to understand the importance of firstly timeout and secondly spending that time in a quiet place with my Father.
I am uncomfortable waiting here for Him. I am not used to it. I want to make some things happen that I know should be done. And yet no matter what I do it is wasted unless God is with me and "in" what I'm doing.
So the follow up can wait until tomorrow. The phone calls can wait until Friday. People may or may not come to my conference but it was Gods idea so I can leave the responsibility of gathering registrations to Him - at least for tonight.
Tonight I will rest again. I'll tell God a few things on my mind and I will try find His rest. I need it. Other things can wait.
My passion has not dwindled but the path to success sometimes goes via a quiet place with the Lord where nothing seems to be happening on the outside but everything is happening on the inside.
Tonight is Pentecost. We have a very important prayer meeting ahead and we are very expectant. Ian Johnson prophesied on Sunday that we should be expectant for what God will do and not be concerned that nothing appeared to be happening around us.
I think that's what a quiet time with God is meant to do.We look on the outside, at our circumstances, at our plans and nothing appears to be progressing - but God says LOOK OUT, He is doing something huge on the inside of us and He is moving mountains, filling valleys, making straight paths in the spiritual that we will soon walk on.
The future is better and easier because God made the way, whilst I was resting with Him.
And i still have my passion.
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